Love...the lie

It's all it takes for me to pick the pen, (figuratively), a slight burst of emotions.
It's her again.
This is the evil thin about relationships. One moment, you're the rationally thinking, highly intelligent individual, the next, you're a snivelling, paranoid suck-up human.
Why then do we bother? Why have these relationships if we have to suffer through them?
I wrote something, it seems like a year ago now, about, 'The Death of Friendships'. I decried everything that makes us succumb to the desire of fraternity and leave behind individuality to grasp the group identity. Simply put, I said, it's a bad idea to have friends.
The piece didn't put me in good light with my friends, is putting it lightly. It almost made them leave me behind...*grinning*. But this is the issue, I retracted the piece, (sort of), and took back what i said or wrote, but today, I am more or less being proved right.
I am falling in love. I am falling so fast, I don't have time to apply brakes or to contemplate what would happen when I land, for I would surely land. The Pit of Love is not endless despite whatever they tell us.
Falling in love is not a bad idea, it is what has to be done to preserve that love that irks me.
When we love someone, we have to change our manner of speech, action even thought. I love Oscar Wilde and he said, '...always be yourself, every other person is already taken...' i like that. It's true. There is no point in pretending to be who you're not. But when you're in love...you pretend.
Imagine a magazine article saying that basing a relationship on a lie is only a very minuscle percentage against the success of the relationship. I think, it's a very huge percent FOR the success of the relationship!
We lie. For those we love, we lie and cheat. Lie, cheat, pretend.
I think i should write a book, I'll call it, 'Relationships...We Lie, Cheat and Pretend'. It'll probably sell in Asia...*laughing*
All in all, I wonder why we have to do this. Why can't we just be ourselves and still keep the ones we love? Why can't I...?*sigh*
I wonder if she'll see this. I know she would...I wonder what she'll think?
Ha!