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It can't work between us.
I have determined it finally. It would not work. The very concept was dead from the beginning, i had so far served only to prolong it. No way, no more. I have tried my hardest. It cannot work.
If at this very stage when things are rosy and all seems beautiful, things are like this, then in the time of trial and problems and heartbreaking tribulation, this would not stand the test.
I give up.
No more.
She, i thought was for me. I have been wrong before. I was wrong this time. There's no point. I give up.
I thought something beautiful was growing between us. I was wrong again. The thought that someone so beautiful could become mine swayed me into such a frenzy that i forgot that which was most essential. It's over.
I give up.
Pathetically, i hoped and prayed, but even the gods had denied me. It's over. I give up.
The mystique of that which had crept up between us before has fizzled. The light is gone. Sparks are vanished and once more, the lonely god sits alone.
I have never had this feeling before, i guess it's a first, but it's over.
I give up.